Friday, February 10, 2012

stretch marks

This morning I baked a batch of wheat bread--nothing special, just the usual household restocking. When I glanced at the loaves before sliding them in freezer bags for the coming week, I noticed something on their surface I hadn't paid much attention to before: stretch marks.

The bread's scarring matches the way I've been feeling lately: stretched thin. Taken by the arm of a two-and-a-half-year-old, pulled by the leg of an army-crawling eight-month-old, and tugged on the heart by a servant-husband. The everyday pulls.

The everyday and the extra yanks leave me burning, burdened, burned out. I know my tasks are kingdom work--relentless work--, but it doesn't prevent me from wondering how much more elasticity I have in me before I break.
 

Like the bread on the counter, I wear the scars of a work-in-progress, uneven and battered. But those flaws give the bread its character, its beauty; they are marks of the Artist, re-purposing the brokenness for his glory.

A bed-headed boy wakes hungry from his nap. Points to the scarred bread. I cut two slices, slather on crunchy peanut butter and homemade blueberry jam, and we commune together, feasting on the broken bread in the quiet afternoon.